They come they go
they plead
they seek
and everytime
I get to know them
they take a piece
of me with them
scattered fragments
of a broken heart
memories locked away
an aching soul
alone so alone
in a crowd
I wanted understanding
he gave me acceptance
he sought what I sought
and I never knew
I sensed it coming
but couldn't admit it
I was scared
it's been so long
before him that
a male came into my life
and stayed longer than a month
sometimes they wanted advice
sometimes they wanted comfort
sometimes they came not knowing why
and when they found me they cried
and my heart ached for them
empathy got the better of me
it always does
I know it's my path
I thought he was different
on the same level
coasting the same vibes
but with him...dark secret lies
how I held him in my arms
when he cried about her
his smother mother
opened that door
took him into my life
gave him comfort
as he gave me light
he was desperate
pathetic sobbing and crying
pulling me back in
I'd have promised anything
even though he hurt me so deeply
I couldn't bear to listen to that sound
it echoes in my head even now
he's slipping into darkness
as I fade from sight
he could have told me
the confusion and twisted logic
I would have listened
I could have helped
but he closed himself off
locked away behind a facade
of false feelings, living this lie
we're not so different
I live in fantasies and dreams
and he lives with his demons
trying to numb his pain
the agony of confusion
and despair that lives
in his heart, I was never a part
I gave myself
fully and completely
I let down every defense
climbed out of my high-walled tower
when he touched my cheek
but he kept a part of himself
always out of sight
hiding in the shadows
Betrayed, Burdened, Broken
I return now to my tower
where I am safe from loss
and understood completely
and remember that there
were reasons
but I will guard my heart
more fiercely and
trust will be hard won
and only my soul will know
if there really is that true "one"